Hi, I'm Sandy!

Welcome to my blog!

You're probably here to get to know me a bit better, and I'm glad to tell you about myself. I'm also sure that a better understanding between us will help you to understand the contents of my blog a bit better and I genuinely want you to consider me as your friend. So, if you have any questions, recommendations or you just want to chat, hit me up!

But now, let's get into the main part of this post, which is you getting to know me. And what better place to start to get to know someone other than their past.

My interest for other countries and cultures started when I was very young. I remember when my aunt had visited Japan and she brought me a real kimono as a souvenir. That's when my interest towards East-Asian countries got the first spark. Then I grew up a bit and forgot it for a while. Then came the day when everything changed for the better (or the worse). I was bored and playing around with YouTube. I didn't know much English back then and so my vocabulary was quite limited. But I knew the word "candy". Without expecting anything I typed candy to the YouTube search engine, and the first thing that stood out to me was a music video by Kyary Pamyu Pamyu called "Candy Candy". (link here!) The only word I can describe the feeling was shooked. I was 12 at the time, didn't understand anything, but it was still the exact thing I was looking for! I got so scared that I'd loose this precious video so I tried to download it but I didn't know how. Somehow I managed to get it to my dad's video editor and the only way I could watch this video was through the screen of this ancient editing program. I was the happiest girl on the planet.

A few days after I showed this video to my friends expecting them to be just as excited about it as I was. They weren't. That's the first time I started to wonder if this was weird. That these things weren't normal for us. Somehow I didn't care what anyone else was saying and kept on doing what I was doing. Unfortunately, this went a bit far and I ended up going to school with pink shoelaces as my ponytail and this time of my life is now known to my friends as "Sandy's kawaii days". I may cringe at it now but I've got to give myself some credit for being so proud of it and not thinking about anyone else. Not so easy nowadays right?

As you might expect, that face stopped after a while. Maybe my fire had burned out. That's also the same time that I started having some problems socially, being bullied at school and left with only two friends who still remain my dearest friends to this day. Only recently I've started to get over these things.

As I grew up I was always keen to travel the world in any shape or form. I wanted to leave all of my bad experiences behind and move abroad to study. I was around 15 that time so there was no choice of leaving immediately. My parents opposed the idea immediately. I've heard every reason why I shouldn't go. Money, homesickness, not having a family to back you up in difficult situations and so on. And after a one tearful talk with my mom at the age of 16, I gave up. We didn't have the money. With my social skills I wouldn't be able to make any friends. I'd regret it. And so, I lived my life like a "normal" student.

That all changed when I came back from a camp abroad when I was 17. I was empowered. Those times were the only times I truly felt like myself and I knew that's how I'm supposed to live my life. I made dozens of new friends, I made the money myself to afford the trip. Suddenly I became social, capable, and independent. Around the same time I found Kpop and Korean dramas. After hesitating for a couple of months I finally let myself to think about the scariest thought. I wanted to study in South-Korea. I had made my research and I knew a ton about both the universities and the culture in general. I thought I was prepared to have that scary conversation with my parents for the second time in my life. Over the course of one year I've been told mean things that have made me cry. None of those mean things were from my friends, classmates or student counselors. They were from my own family, which hurt a million times more.

Now after one year I've proven them that I won't get scared and back off again. I've worked much more than is probably healthy for a high school student, both academically and physically working to earn some money. My parents have prepared for me to take off as soon as I graduate. I really love my parents, and I'm glad they've finally understood that this is what I seriously want and will do no matter their opinion.

Now at the age of 19 I'm ready to be myself again.

I created this blog to help you out. I'm here to inspire you and to give you strength in those difficult situations where no-one believes in you except yourself. I know better than anyone, that whatever you do is nothing worth getting judget about.

Now, go listen to some music that you really enjoy, maybe even Kyary, take a walk and think about what you want to do in life. What are your values? What't something you enjoy? Think about what got you to this point and where you want to go next.

I want to build a community, where everyone can be themselves and express their thoughts freely. You can contact me whenever you want!

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I hope you'll enjoy reading my blog!

-Sandy

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